On Pain and Growth

I’m a naturally cautious person. I like to take the time to consider (overthink) all the factors and outcomes before I make a plan of action.

It seems to me that life has other lessons for me – especially in regards to my romantic relationships. The last two long terms relationships that I’ve been in have ended with what can be loosely described as a total loss (as in the relationship, the living space, sense of security, etc).

I wish I could say that these experiences meant that I’ve figured out how to embrace a more ‘go with the flow’ kind of mindset. Maybe in some small way it has. I have certainly had to come to terms with the fact that I cannot control what others do; only how I respond to their actions.

The hard work that I put in over the last few years on setting and maintaining healthy boundaries is having benefits in the last place I expected – learning to allow my son a relationship with his father that isn’t dependent on my own relationship.

It’s not easy. Initially I wanted to protect Kiddo from as much of the effects of the painful realities of these kinds of changes. I did my best to put on a brave face but he confessed to me about 6 months after we got settled into our new life that he’d heard a lot of my crying after I thought he was asleep. That was tough to hear.

But looking at that now, it speaks to me that he is old enough to understand that not all pain is cause for panic. That emotions like fear and grief are natural and part of the healing process.

It makes me very proud of both of us.

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Review: Picture Perfect Cowboy

Disclaimer: I received an ARC of this book to review. Unfortunately, I had major life changing events and did not get to publish this review as early as I’d hoped.

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When It All Works

I am a worst case scenario person. I feel that if I can figure out the likely end result, then I can come up with a plan to handle it accordingly. This tends to lead me right into worrying about the possible variables and outcomes.

Being ‘cool under pressure’ is not my skill set – NOT AT ALL.

The airbag light sensor light in my car has been causing me a considerable amount of stress. It’s not just the possible financial burden but the practical details, like being able to pick Kiddo up this weekend from his 3 week vacation with my family.

I am absolutely overjoyed to report that, as suspected, the clock spring was causing the light and replacement was covered under the manufacturers extended safety warranty.

Yay! Do a Snoopy dance, or whatever your happy dance looks like.

My personal happy dance is more like Carlton Banks, with a dash of white girl booty shaking thrown in. I was a teenager in the 90’s!

Review: The Chateau by Tiffany Reisz

Disclaimer:  I had more than one fangirl moment when I was contacted to review this novel.  I had already pre-purchased the iBook so I received a paperback ARC in exchange for my review. So there’s that. However, I’ve done my very best to write a balanced and honest review.  I hope you enjoy!

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The Chateau is the latest Original Sinners novel by author Tiffany Reisz.  Please see the end of the post for more information (genre, publisher etc).

If you’re new to the world of the 8th Circle and its inhabitants, please do not hesitate to step inside!  This novel is able to be read as a stand alone story.

To become the King, one must become skilled in the rules of the game, and how to break them.  As an intelligence officer, Lieutenant Kingsley Boissonneault has all the necessary experience to complete the mission – safely bring home a young man who has become tangled up in a sex cult. Continue reading

Tiny Pawprints

I’ve always had a feline in my life. Although Karma and Kismet (Kissa) lived with my mother for the years I was married…they were always mine, so to speak.

I truly grieved when Karma passed. I worried for Kissa, who would be alone for the first time in her life. Karma was my first  pet as an adult – the first life that I took responsibility for.  Kissa’s passing was difficult in a different way. I lost my ‘babycat’ but at the same time I felt this sense of relief. Now my kitties were together again and in its own way that made things right in the world.

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Just Here For The Boos

I wrote last year about the tradition we have at work for decorating pumpkins.  I am so busy with Scouts that I didn’t participate this year.  However, I see how our patients respond to the festivities so I thought it would be fun to share this year’s entries.

My mother asked the other day if Kiddo was still interested in Halloween and I’m replied that I’m concerned this may be the last year.  His interest in the more ‘childlike’ aspects of holidays has been declining over the last two years.

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Things That Come In Threes…

Since I’d seen a 2014 Hyundai Elantra that I liked, we stopped over at the Hyundai dealership to check out their used stock. The experience there was like night and day compared to all the other places I’d dealt with! We drove a few cars and I found that he was very easy to talk with. I was upfront about my complete lack of credit post divorce and how I was concerned about financing because of that issue.

When Mack (salesperson) asked where I was from, he immediately recognized that his finance guy was from the same area. So we chatted with Chris and he actually gave Kiddo a bunch of brochures and information about the new electric model they are coming out with. Continue reading